I cried today

August 20, 2020

Hiiiii! 

So of course its been a month… because you know… I am really great about taking the time to write lol! I had a moment yesterday though and its something I wanted to share with everyone….

So one of my amazing/sweetest friends told me about her close friend who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She thought it might be helpful if I reached out. I immediately was like YES… I want to help! But there was a little part of me that also didn’t want to be pushy… say the wrong things… or just be annoying haha! You think going through it would make it easier… I would have all the answers and know exactly what to say…. but not at all! Totally nerve racking!!! Especially because there were things that were said to me that totally made me feel worse….I would HATE to do that to someone else! Despite being a little nervous I messaged her through instagram and we have been chatting ever since! I have connected with a bunch of women on social media and through the community but there is something different about her…… she reminds me of ME so much. We have the same type of cancer… she elected to have a double mastectomy like I did… she is currently getting chemo and the SAME meds…. she is positive and hopeful with a huge smile on her face which is how most people viewed me (I think) AND she was born and raised in Goffstown and a Mom…. like REALLY!?!? I think you get the gist. We are twins LOL. So talking with her literally brings me back 2 years ago and comes with SO many emotions. And not in a bad way at ALL.. but its like WOAH. 

She posted a quote on instagram yesterday…. “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through and it will be someone else’s survival guide” and then at the bottom she wrote thank you with my instagram account name and a butterfly next to it. Oh my gahhhh….😭😭😭😭  I seriously haven’t cried about cancer stuff in SO long. Like I seriously can’t even remember…. and I started crying so hard… not just a little sniffle with tears like a “WAAAAAAAAHH” kind of cry hahah!! It just meant so much to me. And to think I was nervous about being there for her… ya know?  I think the moral of this story is…. don’t be afraid to reach out… tell your story… support someone. If you don’t… you’ll never know how much they actually needed you 

Oh and while you are reading this please say a quick prayer for her! 🙏 

OK guys… thats it for today.

My goal is to write more often… hahah I am literally laughing out loud … is it because I know it won’t happen? Probably… BUT my hope is to write more often and shorter blogs. Like who wants to read a 9 page essay? I wouldn’t…. So short and sweet and more often 🤞

And lastly, I just want to say thank you SO much for taking the time to read my entries!!!! It means the WORLD. 

Stay safe and sane in this crazy world we live in 

KPOW BABY 👊