October 15, 2018
I had my last and final chemo infusion today!!!! I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel. My emotions have been ALL over the place. Most days are fine but then there are days I literally cry over nothing. One night I was falling asleep on the couch around 8pm and Jamie said “Kel why don’t you just go to bed, you look exhausted”. And then all of a sudden uncontrollable tears fell from my eyes. Like a lot… and I was pissed that I was tired at 8pm haha!! I got up and went to the bathroom to get ready for bed. Washed my face and looked in the mirrror and saw “that sick girl” with no eyebrows or eyelashes. I continued to cry and be angry for this cancer that constantly seems to follow me around. With tears still falling I got into bed and punched my pillow SO hard. I immediately started laughing at myself haha! Like really Kel?!? Did you really just punch your pillow? Lol!! I’m glad I could laugh it off
Anyways!! I felt SO good at chemo today. I was in good spirits and excited to give Fred one last ass whoopin! 👊💥 I have been talking to my nurse Becca about possibly trying a Wig! I know I know.. I have been anti-wigs since day one but my hair is coming in and I look like a baby chick lol! It’s super fine and you can barely see it. I realize it might be a while till I can go hatless and was open to trying something new! So the social worker came over with a few to try on. The first couple I was like awwww hell no! So hideous lol! BUT THEN.. I tried a “human hair” wig and it was pretty! It’s brown in color and a little passed my shoulders. Becca suggested a beanie hat with it which I love! They said I could take it home 😊 it was donated and brand new. So I left with a wig and 2 beanie hats! Yay! At the end of treatment all the nurses came over and started clapping and congratulating me. Obviously I teared up lol! What an amazing crew. The Norris cotton cancer center at CMC became my “home” “safe place”. It’s such a small, quaint place compared to Lebanon and I no longer feel like a number. My nurse Becca who is with me every week became my friend. She makes me smile and laugh every week! So grateful for her, Dr. Bonnem and my team! It was sad to say goodbye but I know I will be back for follow-up appointments and keep in touch.
So this is a BIG week! Wednesday night I have a MRI and Thursday I meet with Dr. Patel to review the MRI results and schedule a surgery date. First MRI (before chemo) tumor=7cm. 2nd MRI (post red devil) tumor=2cm. Let’s pray that the third MRI (post Taxol) tumor=0cm 🤞🙏
🖤 Thoughts and prayers to my Grandpa & Pep
🖤 Heather (BFF), Mitch & Lucy, thank you for an amazing weekend in Portland!!
🖤 Congratulations Mariah & Matt. The wedding was beautiful!
🖤 My lake girl Lisa, thank you for the bracelet, chocolates and socks!
🖤 Thank you Mom & Dad for all your help, support & love
🖤 Thanks for my hand-made beanie hat sis!
🖤 Thank you for dinner Gram, Pops, Aunt Mary & Uncle Paul! And thank you Gram and Pops for babysitting so we could have a few nights out!!
🖤 Thank you Matt & Eleesha for the gorgeous flowers
Gosh I know I am forgetting a ton more! You are all amazing and I am so grateful for each and everyone of you!
Let’s crush the next chapter… surgery 💪💪
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