We can do hard things

September 14, 2020

This past weekend I was laying on my hammock with my husband “trying” to read my book. Its called “Untamed” by Glennon Doyle. I have always had a hard time with reading. When I was in 5th grade I remember meeting with the reading specialist throughout the week. I just couldn’t seem to remember anything! Its something I have struggled with my entire life. I haven’t told anyone this… and here I am about to share a story with whoever wants to click on my blog… how terrifying haha! Here it goes… It was one of my first REAL job interviews. I was a substitute teacher at the time and my Mom had asked if I was interested in a  paraprofessional position. I was like sure, that sounds great! So here I am… definitely nervous but I knew the women interviewing me and I thought… whats the worst that could happen. Well the worst happened… I was absolutely humiliated. She asked me what kind of books I liked to read and I froze…. the truth was…. I hadn’t read ONE book in my entire life. I didn’t listen to any books that were read to me as a child…. and in high school I used CliffNotes (basically an online source that gives you a description of each chapter and therefor I didn’t have to read the book lol).  I was SO ashamed and felt incredibly stupid. The little self-esteem I had built came crashing down on me that day. Lets just say…. I didn’t get the Job. Her response made me feel like I was unprepared and not ready for a “big girl” interview. Ugh…. this stuck with me. Even till this day I cringe of the embarrassment. Every once in a while though…. I push through a book. Whether it takes me a month or a year to get through it. I tell myself… you can do this… one page at a time. So to get back to my story… I was laying on my hammock “trying” to read my book…I found myself staring at the sky a few times and my mind wondering here and there…. and while I was thinking (not reading) I decided to share what was one of the most humiliating days of my life. To remind people “WE CAN DO HARD THINGS”. Whether its fighting cancer, pushing through a learning disability, living with a mental illness, battling covid19, losing a loved one, raising children, the stressors of work, divorce, moving away, alcohol & drug addiction, goodbyes, speaking up about equality and human rights, accepting criticism, running a marathon, changing careers, etc etc etc. WE CAN DO HARD THINGS. 

Thats it 🙂 

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! 

KPOWPOW