August 23, 2018
I went in for an infusion on Monday and after my Oncologist reviewed my blood work he said we need to skip chemo this week. My neutrophil count (a type of white blood cell that is crucial in fighting infection) was way too low. This impairs the immune system and can lead to rapidly fatal infections.. yikes! We will see what my levels are this Monday and go from there. On a good note, my Aunt Deb who is a nurse suggested applying lidocaine cream to my port prior to it being accessed and it was WAY less painful. Thanks Aunt Deb!
So the past month my eyebrows and eyelashes have quickly faded to nothing. This has been way harder then I thought. I feel like I officially “look the part”. I have a hard time looking in the mirror sometimes as its a constant reminder that I am a cancer patient. I had the worst self esteem growing up and my parents were constantly telling me how beautiful I was but for some reason I couldn’t see it. I hated my crazy curly hair.. thought I looked like a stray poodle haha. Thought my gymnast body looked manly. I could go on and on. The ONE thing I liked was my eyelashes. My husband use to call me “pretty eyes” in high school 🙂 The one thing that gave me confidence was now gone. I tried to stay positive and one afternoon started looking at pictures of when I had hair, eye lashes, and eyebrows and realized WOW what the hell was I complaining about. Huge eye opener and a lesson I should’ve had a long time ago. I will never complain about my looks again! And HELLO KELLY your still here fighting.. lets not complain about hair lol. Starting to see a little growth on my head though and a little on my legs!! Maybe its coming back in those areas? Yay!!
Thanks Wiggy, BBarb & Diane for the visits this week!
Jamie and I are celebrating our 5th anniversary at Buckley’s restaurant tonight! You made me feel beautiful in high school and you still do to this day without any hair. Love you so much and cant wait to celebrate tonight 😘
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