Wednesday, April 16th
Today should have been my 7 year cancerversary. I usually buy a huge pink balloon with the number of years that have passed. I hold it up high and take lots of photos! Jamie and I usually go to brunch or do something special. It’s a day where I feel like cancer is so far behind me…
Instead… I found myself on the bathroom floor with tears running down my face screaming inside… why me?! Why do I have to go through this again and go from 7 to 0!! I cried and cried…. I looked myself in the mirror and truly just felt so sad for her… she doesn’t deserve this. Shes a good person, good Mom, good wife, good friend, good nurse & caretaker…. like why!! I felt so angry and so sad in that moment. I broke…
There were 2 options… continue this pitty party on the bathroom floor or get the F up! You better believe I got off the bathroom floor, wiped my tears and decided that Fred was not going to ruin this day!! I might not be cancer free today but I am still going to celebrate beating Fred 7 years ago!! I went through so much… chemo for 5 months, double mastectomy, radiation for 12 weeks, removal of my ovaries, hormone treatment including meds and infusions. Like shit…. that is worth celebrating right?!!
Overall it ended up being a good day. I went back to the hospital for a follow-up. Jamie drove me! Lab levels dropped but that is to be expected. I met with Rachel, the Nurse Practitioner who has been following me. She is super nice! I told her about my symptoms and still not feeling great. I requested to have hydration while I was there and she thought that was a great idea. She said if it makes me feel better we can add it to the schedule 1 week after chemo. She also suggested Healios for my mouth pain/discomfort. It’s a million dollars (insert eye roll) but I NEED to do something. Talking and eating have become uncomfortable! I ordered it and it should be coming soon! Infusion went great… I totally hit it off with the nurse. We had so much in common! Lots of laughs!! Jamie and I then went to Panera…. my order will ALWAYS be pick 2 broccoli cheddar soup, turkey bravo sandwhich and a baguette!! YUM!!
One of my friends called me and said… “you know what Kel, sometimes we have bad moments but that doesn’t mean it will be a bad day”. I couldn’t agree more. I am glad I scraped myself off the floor today…
Fred has nothing on KPow!
Love you all,
Kelly’s Breast Cancer Blog 🎀 
So glad you chose to celebrate all you did 7 years ago!! Nothing can take away that hard work and bravery.
Also, love the soup and sandwich combo at Panera!
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You are one strong woman! Love to you!
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