Mole Biopsy results

I am not going to lie… the biopsy was on my mind. I have a pretty good gut and my gut was saying it was nothing… but I think I will forever be scarred by the phone call I received a few years ago….

The medical assistant called me yesterday and my immediate thought was…. its only been 4 days and they said I would get results in a week. Does this mean they found something and they are calling me early? Her voice seemed…. I don’t know… dullish haha. I couldn’t get a vibe from her which started making me even more nervous. She said, “I have biopsy results for you”. I responded quickly “ok”. She said, “I need to get your date of birth first”. OH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD LADY! I am having a panic attack over here! I quickly stated my date of birth and literally felt winded and light headed…. my heart was POUNDING. She said calmly, “you have a benign mole that needs no further testing”. OH THANK GOD!!!!! Wow…. pretty crazy how quickly PTSD can kick into high gear and throw you for a loop. Grateful I have no concerning areas of skin cancer and my biopsy came back negative though. YAY!

I had a follow up appointment with my radiologist Dr. Brower yesterday. I think it was the first time I didn’t cry which made me think afterwards…. Wow Kel… you have come a long way! Typically all he would have to ask is… how are you doing…. and I would be like WAAAAAAA followed by tears, fear, confusion and feeling absolutely lost. This time was different. I was confident with my answers in regards to how I felt, I had a plan to things I felt like I could work on, and there were NO TEARS!

I hope this gives a little hope to people who are struggling. Just hang in there. Healing takes time… which I know can be super frustrating as no one wants to wait to feel normal again. But once you reach the light at what might feel like the longest tunnel…. it can truly be beautiful.

Be safe, be kind

KPOW