6 year cancerversary

I celebrated SIX years of being cancer free a month ago on April 16th, 2024. Guys… the fact I am still living…. no THRIVING six years later is absolutely mind blowing.

***TRIGGER WARNING***

I will never forget the day I was diagnosed…. I was feeding the kids lunch in the dining room when I heard my phone ringing… it was the radiologist… and he had the results. During the biopsy he told me “DO NOT answer the phone alone… make sure someone is with you OK?” Guys…. you know that’s EXACTLY what I did LOL. I felt like I already knew before I picked up the phone… I KNEW it was cancer. My gut was telling me this ever since I found my lump months prior. And my biopsy was on Friday the 13th… so if that wasn’t a dead giveaway I don’t know what was lol!! Anyways… do you think I was going to call Jamie or my Mom… wait for them to come to the house and then call him back? HELL NO… I needed to know NOW. I ran into the living room… hands were shaking and my heart was racing… “hello”… “Hi Kelly, I am so sorry to give you this news but its cancer”. I blacked out… I remember getting out a pad of paper and scribbling some dates down… my hands continued to tremble… my heart was racing… I couldn’t breathe. “Kelly… I assume you won’t remember much of this conversation, call me back later”. I hung up the phone…. and I sobbed. This was the first time I truly felt numb… frightened… scared…. and well… F*CK THIS. From there Jamie was the first person I called followed by Mom and my Mother-in-law. They immediately came over. I honestly can’t remember what I did while I waited. I remember not being able to look at Andi and Zack… for some reason it was too painful. All I could think of is losing them…. and worse them losing me. Lots of tears, shock and emotions filled the living room that afternoon. But I will say I felt loved… protected… and I knew I was going to kick cancers ass with the most amazing people standing by my side. I never once felt alone battling this horrible disease.

Fastforward 6 years later… it’s a memory… a distant but sometimes not so distant… horrible… beautiful memory.

Thanks for being here in this space with me.

Happy 6 years KPOW ❤